My
mouth is red and sticky with blood. No, not blood. Lipstick, crimson
and wet, a moist, warm gash. The illusion vanishes, and I ache.
This is why I never wear red lipstick. My mouth in the tiny compact
mirror hurts me, plagues me with memories that never happened, makes
a phantom flavor burn upon my tongue--a flavor that I am all too
familiar with, but tasted in another time, another form that should
have existed and does not. I set the mirror aside and put my mouth
to my wrist, lick at the blood trickling down my skin, probe my
tongue at the clean, metal-tasting edges of the freshly-slashed
wound. He watches me, dark eyes hungry, and I put my teeth to his
throat.
He
growls, and threads his blood-sticky fingers through my already-tangled
hair, the sharpened tips of his painted and ichor-caked nails catching
in the soft ebon strands and tugging at them painfully. I give him
a swift, sharp, animalistic nip of retaliation, and then my nails
are stroking his jugular, my canines are at the soft flesh of his
neck, sinking deep into yielding muscle and releasing a corrupted
fountain upon my tongue, the flavor of dark life and something dank
and mouldering and sweetly, warmly rotting.
We
grapple at each other hungrily, and he twists around me, and we
snap at each other like rabid dogs, lips parted, my nerve and bone
canines to his prosthetics, the sweet, wet flavor of our mouths
running down our chins, flowing between our mouths, staining our
skin with diluted pink and making delicious-smelling wet clumps
in our loose-streaming hair. Blood from my wrist smears his chest
like the meaty gore of dying, and I tear away from lapping at his
jaw and attack the fresh scarlet with a snarl; flavors mingle, my
essence and his skin and our hot man-animal scents all running together
into one obscene font of night-bound bloodlust.
A fresh wound blossoms upon my neck like a gaping mouth vomiting
blood and crushed rose petals; the pain is hot, glowing, but razor-edged
porcelain is cold and wet upon my raw, exposed nerves as he savages
me. Our naked bodies coil like those of wanton serpents, like those
of whippet-thin, supple and thrashing wolves of emaciated inhumanity.
We are wild, growling, beasts who have forgotten their human natures
and know only the desire to tear and rend, claws aching to rake
aside barriers of flesh to find truth of being in the soft pinkness
of exposed, glistening entrails. When he snaps at my fingers, I
howl and snarl and slash my talons at his heart, but he bites them,
over and over again, gnawing like a mountain cat with a flesh-trailing,
cracking bone, sucking at my bloody skin. I see crimson, nothing
but crimson, and his eyes glow with it as we stare each other down,
feral smiles of wetly gleaming bestiality a challenge, a promise
of death; I imagine his flesh peeling and exploding away in ribbons
laced with scarlet.
We
could hunt like this, yes--hunt and kill together, falling with
our sibilant hisses upon our victims and kissing the breath, the
blood, the terror, the life from their throats with our teeth and
feeding as we are meant to, feeding as we need to to quench the
hurtful, burning, acidic hunger that grows stronger every night.
"Adrien...." he hisses gleefully, sanguine fluid trickling from
one corner of his beautiful pink-and-tan mouth, his clenched-teeth
grin like a Death's-head, and my mind is so fogged with the blood-madness
that I barely recognize the crackling syllables of my own name;
I am Adrien no longer, but some thing without a name, brother and
lover and father and twin to this depraved creature before me. He
is the most exquisite thing that I have ever seen, with his dark
brown hair disarrayed aesthetically and sweeping his scarlet-streaked
shoulders and his wild, wild eyes tinged with the same demon-red
that drips from his white, white canines and paints his soft, soft
lips.
The
blood that trickles and courses over his slashed and clawed and
gnawed skin of velvety naked mocha makes me hungrier, hungrier than
even the pulsing pinkness of exposed flesh, and I want to fall on
him again, want to be his victim, want him to be mine. Then we are
upon each other once more, gripping and snapping and growling, biting
and licking and sucking and joining and screaming with each lance
of ecstatic, thrusting, rhythmic pain, blood and human salt mingling
into the most perfect flavor of all, settling warm in our bellies
until finally we fall still.
Placated
we are, yes.....but sated, satisfied we will never be, not until
we can hunt, can tear and rend and rip, can kill--and even as we
settle into drifting, cloying silence, we still trail our fingers
in the spatters of crimson and white and mixed-pink and lick them
from our skin, picking at the edges of a hunger that will never
go away. As we drift into sleep, my mouth is red and sticky with
blood.
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